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Busy. Busy.

 

Busy.

 

I wonder, how I can get my room so dirty when I am hardly ever here?

I did the math with my usual 5 hours of sleep and then my hours helping Fernando or casting or whatever… I am here 7 to 8 hours out of the day. I guess I use that time to trash my bathroom and bedroom.

I'm going to try and get a website up soon. Sell myself… in a professional way. Freelance work would be nice about now. Day jobs and producing don't mix.

There's always the worry that heavy professional writing will hurt my own creative works. I'll give it a try, expand the portfolio, and learn more about punctuation. ;p

Trying to get some sort of writing group up and running again. But it likely won't be very consistent or happen at all until September after we shoot the movie.

Grover will take place in October now. I think the move for it is good. My stress level goes up and down; Fernando's is high but he always seems on edge – he should eat heart healthy foods.

I need to make all of the stuff I have been doing work for me. As Karen tells me I have to think big, show it off. I think I was taught to minimize my accomplishments to avoid seeming arrogant. Modesty does not get you a job out here… unless maybe you're a nun. Exaggeration seems to actually. No, no, no… "Positive representation".

That's all for the moment. Back to work.

Delayed Teen Angst Opening

The opening to our Webisodes.

Music by Nate Lee, Robert James Lee, Matt Wasmund.

Look at the attractive actors Tristan, Fernando, and Amy!

The dangers of coffee and Rockstars

Rockstar drinks. I wouldn't start rumors about a saintly group of people.

Nearing 1am. Why doesn't sleep come easily when I have such a limited amount of time for it? It should be there and waiting for me by maybe 12am.

Casting this weekend. Always casting. Couldn't Fernando's protagonist live in a world of rocks with chalk-drawn faces? Must he make my life hell?

He doesn't…

And can't…

At the moment…

I have an idea for a film with a very small cast… two men will be very angry with me. ;p

I begin every project asking myself, "Who do I need to get even with?"

I'm at the first time of my life where I actually feel compelled to share a feeling; a near mythical and illusive one.

I won't.

Goodnight.

Again

I’ve been commanded… advised. And so I shall follow orders.

Today are Jefferson pickup shots. Due to hectic schedules and camera use they are being done two months later… which would have been fine except we have an actor trapped out of the country. We are now shooting around him. If someone can be creative enough to do this I know it is Karen… but what a pain in the ass. Really. I thought maybe a cardboard cut out would work… or maybe in post we can draw in a stick figure to represent him. We have time to just blow up a picture of him and then wave it a bit back and forth to try and show “life”.

I am going to suggest this last one. Even to the extreme that we cut out eye holes in a photo to show realistic blinking. Soft focus shots, poor lighting. We shall overcome this set back.

I’ve been writing unwelcome poetry again. It is the best kind. You get the most emotion from things that are not desired. Casual acceptance of the poetry is not fun. “I swear to God, stop writing it!” is more heartfelt than “Thank you.”

Ugh.

When you do a lot you have little to say. I believe this. Blogging endlessly is like a need to prove you have some excuse to exist. I’m going to start blogging more.

Though my words are often dark.. I have been having positive feelings for some time. I want to throw the world off guard. But let me be honest now… things are good. Things will continue to get better.

Uhhh

What can I say about my neglect of this place?
People email to say they’ve read my blog… but they don’t leave comments. There is no proof. I need more validation. They won’t leave comments after I write that either.
On Wednesdays I now work for Fernando. He has promised to present me with my money in a white envelope; I hope they are unmarked bills.
“The Grover Complex” goes well, it goes slowly, but it goes well. Producing is different. That’s what I will say about it. The movie is shooting at the end of August. We’re approaching some places for money this week; they’d better cough it up.
Our webisode series, “Delayed Teen Angst” will soon be up and running. I say this often but this time it will. Our opening is on Youtube now. Yes.
“Jefferson” will get some pickup shots soon. We’ll have our entire feature shot. Exciting shit.
So, I’ll now have my name attached to three projects that will be available for public viewing.
I am getting a Google presence... which is all that matters.